I finally got to have my Body Assessment yesterday. If you ask me, it was not worth $210. All they did was give me a goal weight (or rather ask me to give them one), take 2 pictures, my measurements, and give me a binder. And I was not very pleased with the lady that helped me. I could tell that she was only asking me questions to sound polite, but didn't really care about my answers. Normally this sort of thing doesn't get to me. I understand that everyone has an off day and it's hard working with people everyday. It's hard to care about every person that walks in the door, no matter how much you want to. That said, it did bother me a little with this lady because the questions were about my weight and I am not all that comfortable talking about it yet. Going in I was hoping to receive some support and I don't feel like I did.
At lease I have C. He supports me enough for ten people. I know that I have many other people to support me, I just haven't talked to them as much about it.
The binder that they gave me is pretty intense. It outlines what each group meeting is going to be about. They also give assignments and they want us to journal. I am hoping that I can use this blog to journal, so I don't have to write everything twice. I have to go to a two hour meeting every week. My first meeting is on the 10Th of February. In my second class I get my product (shakes) and I start my fast. I get 5 shakes a day and I have have up to two serving of chicken broth. They sell a special one, but I think that I can just use bullion cubes, and it will be cheaper. In addition to that I have to drink at lease 4 liters of water a day. That part will be easy for me except the having to pee every five minuets, that will SUCK!
I am feeling pretty optimistic. I feel like I am ready to make some changes and really live my life.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
It's been too long...
I have had some financial setbacks in my plan to start Optifast. Unfortunately, with the holidays, it's been hard to find an extra $200 for my body assessment. I now have it scheduled for the 29th of January, and hopefully I will be able to afford it by then.
Which leads me to a huge rant about the heath care system...
If you have heath problem related to your weight (like my high blood pressure and cholesterol) you can qualify for weight loss surgery. All I would need is to have my doctor recommend surgery, and wait out the process. This is a surgery that would cost my health plan thousands of dollars. They are willing to pay that, but they aren't willing to pay for my body assessment for Optifast, which is a program that they endorse and whose offices are on their property. Where is the logic in that? I understand the health plan not paying for diet "foods", that makes sense to me. But why not help people with the medical side of it. It just so frustrating that my health plan doesn't want to help me with my health issues unless they get to cut me open to do it.
I have so many other issues with the health care system, and my particular health care provider in general but I'll save that for another post.
I also had some major problems with depression in December. By major, I don't mean suicidal, just for the record. I had several anxiety attacks, which is new for me. I felt like everything was out of control, and there was too much to do. Looking back, I don't know what I felt I couldn't handle. I feel the same way to some extent everyday. Like if I could just get the whole house clean at once, I'll be happy. Or if I can just get all the bills paid on time, I'll feel better. And when I can't I just want to give up. Only during the holidays, I felt like giving up meant disappointing everyone that I knew and I couldn't deal with that. It's a hard thing to put into words.
I've suspected that I have issues with depression for maybe the past 8 years or so, but it seems like when I finally get the courage or drive to seek help it doesn't seem so bad anymore. Which I'm guessing is the normal highs and lows of depression. I had an appointment to see a psychiatrist yesterday, and I didn't go. I know that once I start the diet, I will get counseling, it's part of the program. I guess I'm avoiding the issue until I have to deal with it...healthy, right?
Which leads me to a huge rant about the heath care system...
If you have heath problem related to your weight (like my high blood pressure and cholesterol) you can qualify for weight loss surgery. All I would need is to have my doctor recommend surgery, and wait out the process. This is a surgery that would cost my health plan thousands of dollars. They are willing to pay that, but they aren't willing to pay for my body assessment for Optifast, which is a program that they endorse and whose offices are on their property. Where is the logic in that? I understand the health plan not paying for diet "foods", that makes sense to me. But why not help people with the medical side of it. It just so frustrating that my health plan doesn't want to help me with my health issues unless they get to cut me open to do it.
I have so many other issues with the health care system, and my particular health care provider in general but I'll save that for another post.
I also had some major problems with depression in December. By major, I don't mean suicidal, just for the record. I had several anxiety attacks, which is new for me. I felt like everything was out of control, and there was too much to do. Looking back, I don't know what I felt I couldn't handle. I feel the same way to some extent everyday. Like if I could just get the whole house clean at once, I'll be happy. Or if I can just get all the bills paid on time, I'll feel better. And when I can't I just want to give up. Only during the holidays, I felt like giving up meant disappointing everyone that I knew and I couldn't deal with that. It's a hard thing to put into words.
I've suspected that I have issues with depression for maybe the past 8 years or so, but it seems like when I finally get the courage or drive to seek help it doesn't seem so bad anymore. Which I'm guessing is the normal highs and lows of depression. I had an appointment to see a psychiatrist yesterday, and I didn't go. I know that once I start the diet, I will get counseling, it's part of the program. I guess I'm avoiding the issue until I have to deal with it...healthy, right?
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